The World is Sick

Insomnia, the Fuel of Writing

So, I met up with my old classmates. After many, many long months of not seeing them. It was a surprisingly good turnout. We had lunch, talked a lot, and fired up some LAN. Sounds great, yeah?

Well, it certainly was fun, even though I didn’t manage to land a victory. For some reason, however, I am anything but cheerful now.

I realised that I didn’t have much to say to my friends. I mean, sure, Starcraft II is a great conversation topic, but it just sort of accentuated the complete lack of other things. It’s sort of been like this for a while. We never make small talk. Just cut straight to the action.

That makes it all a little less personal. I feel as if we’ve grown apart. Further than I thought we would. Spent a little too much time on our separate paths, I guess. Doesn’t help that a certain someone suddenly has an immensely bleak worldview. Well, not suddenly, I guess, but it’s really depressing. Makes it seem as if he’s got nothing to live for.

On top of that, my immensely bored other friends are also obsessed with Starcraft. It’s a good game, I’ll give it that. And it’s still relatively entertaining after about a month, which is more than I can say for most other games. But the game is rather tiring, and there’s a lot of emphasis on competition. I’m not a competitive guy. I like teaming up and killing fictional bad guys, not other people. And in a more laid back, room for error sort of situation. “Fun” doesn’t involve losing half of my battles for a simple mistake to me.

I guess I always knew that this band of brothers would eventually trip over a land mine. Or several. But we’ve always recovered. Always had something new to do. Eventually, we became a little pessimistic, I guess. All these movies suck, I would say. Let’s not waste ten dollars on two hours of our lives we’re never getting back. Swenson’s for dinner? Carl’s Jr still has the best quantity per dollar ratio. Why don’t we meet somewhere new today? No, Dhoby Ghaut is the optimum meeting point for all of us based on our most easily accessed MRT line.

Maybe the whole effort minimalist thing isn’t that applicable to social events. I remember when we used to do stuff for the sake of being outside, like regular people.

I think green tea has caffeine in it. That’s probably why I’m awake.

Ugh.